When he tell me his feelings

I know that God has plans and tests in our lives. It is not always OK, it is not always ALRIGHT. We are going to hurt each other by words, emotionally, unintentionally and many more. But these things are not going to happen without any reason. What we need to do is to hold on.

Look for goodness. Sometimes when everything seems shattered, we tend to stop what we always wanted to do. We are always in the dark corner and we stop appreciating. We tend to be blind and focus more on the bad.
Don't. The time when you started to feel that your boy/girl doesn't deserve your love anymore, that is the right time for them to feel your love more and more. Like 2x than before. They are just losing their minds and going crazy with few things that surrounds them. They are being bothered by bad influences.  Remember where it all began. We both deserved to be loved and if we feel we deserved each other, we must pull ourselves back.

Anyway, 18 days of sacrifices I can say. He has been the most stubborn human being ever existed. I hated him for that days and loved him at the same time. The only man who made me feel love and hate in one. I cannot even imagine that was possible. Anyway, he almost kneeled down to get me back (I never left him tho he just felt that I am near to walking away. Good Job! He has feelings!)

He started sharing his feelings again. How he got bored, bothered by things, worried of little stuffs, hate something, everything! That is what I loved about him tho. If a key to a man's heart is thru his stomach then for ME, a key to my heart is thru a guy's true feelings. I love it when a man is sharing. It's a turn on. I love reading behaviors and minds. I can know him easily by that.

Before I ended it, I want to share a line from a bible verse.

"Love keeps no records of wrongs"
1 Corinthians 13:5

It is true without being exaggerated. Sometimes it hurts to remember a bad past, but it only lasts for a second because everytime I have doubts, I share it with the Lord and not with my guy. Hehe..that is so effective, you must try.
Amen! 💙

What can you do to save your LDR Love?

Hell weeks. This is what we have encountered. Hanep sa challenges. He is living his own life, i do not care, what I care about is our relationship. Really. It is okay to go on with your life, what isn't okay is if one of us forgets our responsibilities to each other. Being committed is a responsibility. You cannot just go on with what you know that is only for you (not all the time). We are ONE. Teamwork is a MUST.

So while he is too busy doing his stuffs, he forgot about me. I hate when people are in their own comfort zones then easily forgot how lonely it is when outside. I am going crazy for real. It feels like I want the whole him and not just 1/4 of him. I am not pulling him, I just want to feel him and he wants to go away. So then, I realized to look for other happiness. One that he cannot give to me for the moment. He noticed then wants me to come back and focus more on him. Which is unfair on the other side. But one thing is clear, he do not want me to leave and me neither. I just moved on a bit of inch to know if I am still important. I danced with his music, and he doesn't want the way I danced with it. So he adjusted. I just hope that he can stand it. Because for me it is not that easy though.

Happiness is always there. It will never leave if you will hold on to it.
Do not talk or share what's personal to other people. Only few knows you, others will give opinions and theirs will not help you that much.

If you want to have peace of mind, as a girl, a woman in LDR, PRAY. Say everything to the LORD. He is the One who will really help you all through out. Not your boyfriend, not your friends. GOD will use them as His instrument and that's it.  When I have doubts, I used to tell it to God. Sometimes, it is better to be innocent than knowing everything at the wrong time. If there is something wrong, you'll feel it. God will not let you live your life filled of wrong doings.

Hindi laging happy

LDR. Kakaiba. Puro tiis at hirap. Puro overthinking na hindi maiiwasan lalo kapag pagod ka sa trabaho. Puro away at tampuhan na akala mo laging mauuwi sa break-up. Puro sumbatan ay hingian ng oras, na kapag di ka mapagbigyan agad feeling mo di ka na mahalaga. Puro selos na hindi maiiwasan lalo kapag nakikita mong mas masaya pa sya sa kaibigan nya kaysa saiyo. Masakit yon dahil FEELING mo, hindi sya sayo nakuha ng SAYA.
Pero aminin mo, dahil sa pagmamahal mo, lahat ito bukal sa loob mong pinaglalaban at kinakaya.

LDR. Napakasarap isiping may nagmamahal sayo sa malayo. Napakasarap isipin na kahit di kayo nagkakaroon ng physical contact, mahal nyo pa rin ang isat isa. Napakasarap isipin na lagi tayong may hinihintay-Ang Makasama sya.
Napakasarap isipin na nagmamahal ka ng iba, at nagkakaoras ka sa sarili mo. Napakasarap isipin na alam mong hindi ka nagiisa.

LDR. Kalaban natin ay oras na 12hrs, 6hrs, 3hrs pagitan. Kalaban natin ay puyat at antok. Kalaban natin ay ang internet connection. Kalaban natin ay ang araw na hindi natin sila nakukumusta man lang. Kalaban natin ay ang mga guni-guni na bumubulong sa ating isipan. Kalaban na hindi mananalo sa ating totoo at buong pagmamahalan.

LDR. Hindi laging masaya. Kung yun ngang magkasama nagaaway pa ano pa kaya tayo na tao lang din naman.
LDR na hindi man nga laging masaya, bawing bawi naman kapag naulit na ang pagsasama.

*time is gold..wag tayo mag aksaya ng kras sa arguments na dala lang ng pansariling emosyon. LDR helps us to grow more. LDR helps us to be MATURE.*