LDR on the other side

Long Distance Relationship. I can define it in different perspectives. Really. 

Most of the time,I found it really helpful. Lonely, yes if you used to be with someone you love for years and then you have to be apart. 

But IF ONLY you would look around, there is more to life. I mean, you will not stick around the situation and be lonely for a long time. It is normal to feel the loneliness and feel like you are a loner, but if you are working and you feel like you have more to do with your life, then LDR could be a blessing in disguise. Well,still it is up to you on how you will see it but then, based on my experiences, I learned. I can say I matured a little than before. Those stress can change you for the better. 

Maybe I can say this because as of the of the moment I don't have a problem with my boyfriend. You can think about that. I will not force you to believe me but, it is not about how he treats me, sometimes it is also about how I see myself as a girlfriend, a person, an individual, a human and a woman. 

It is about knowing my worth. I know I deserved to be happy so I must claim it.

Humbly saying, I already saw my self super down and I dont want to see my self like that again. I need to help my self too. Skip all those overthinking, wake up every morning without worrying because I choose not to, because I know someone will love me the way I do. The process is not easy. It took me a lot of time to trust a person whom I did not seen for years or months. It is difficult. I am investing a feeling that I am not sure if I will get the same as a payback. The first question I asked myself is- "Can I really take it again?" 

I answered YES. " Can you now handle whatever is yet to come?" Can you feel the true love?" All is yes. And I am happy to say. 

I cannot believe that sometimes, no, most of the times I am alone with my thoughts, I want to share some ideas to my boyfriend but he is not there, little by little, I am getting used to it in a positive way. It helps me a lot and I know I can help him too. If I am feeling super lonely I know he feels double. Just like a girl, boys have feelings too and they like keeping it to themselves. The battle is not only for me but it is for US. We are two here, I cannot fight alone. I believe that if I will only make everything so much more complicated then we are going to fall down like dominoes. The woman is always the one who will hold the situation, the man is there to support but the woman holds the rest. It is not unfair, it is teamwork. So I do not feel upset if I see him happy in fact, I am happier. I can see him do what he wants freely without hurting me and at the same time he is there for me. A good man who knows your worth even for once he hurt you, always deserves a woman who will understand him for the rest of his life and sure thing, someday, you woman will be surprised, because that man who you loved for a long or short time but for real, will love you the way you do not need to ask for.